snow in summer

i find myself thinking of you
at the most inopportune moments

secret times
the few and far between, when i am alone

i image how things might be
if things were only different

if the distance between us wasnt there
if it could be easy

if things werent so dire
so desperate

i feel you slipping thry my fingers
likes blades of grass in the summer breeze

you are everything i want
but nothing i can have