and when she whispers

im tired of pretending
showing you my good side

always being the bright one
while my heart dies in the shadows

your fool for too long
i can no longer hide

lover you are my everything
every breath every thought

a part of you is here, constantly
within my bones, beneath my skin

it shouldnt have to be this hard
i shouldnt have to fight to make you love me

wasted, i have stopped
trying to make you mine

stopped trying to be your heart
stopped eternally breaking my own

i cannot go on any longer
not one more moment, not one more day

i dont want to care anymore
tears burn hot behind my eyes

so i drink until im numb
and sleep my days away

i dont think
i dont feel

my trembling heart
beats in my hands

so brittle
so close to the end