grey days

you said you love me for my sweetness
my kind and gentle ways

that you knew me
the one none of the others saw

but she wasn't there
you never knew her

instead, you twisted me into everything you wanted
spun from silk and honeyed smiles

so with sadness i let you go
and i won't go looking for you

because i'd rather think you left
me perfect

than see the flawed shell
i really am

so i sit in darkness
missing you so

missing the feeling of my heart
bursting from its chest

but still, i smile
to know that you are out there, somewhere, loving me